Guilty

I got no sleep last night. Not a wink. I been crying my eyes out for Tom, the only person who was ever kind to me.
Daddy beat me for bein’ upset over a nigga’s life but I don’t care.
I feel sore all over, from  the weight of my guilt.
Why couldn’t I just uv been brave for once? Why couldn’t I uv saved his life?
When it all comes down to it, this is my fault. I killed the only person who ever really cared for me. I let my feelings get the best of me with Tom, and look what came out of it. Maybe I should just not listen to what my heart is tellin' me to do ever again.

Angry at Daddy

Having the last name Ewell is the worst thing that ever happened to me.
Ever since ma' died daddy aint ever been the same.
Before he died, we only got whipped if we really deserved it, but now it happens if he has a bad day. Or if he been drinkin’.
And he don’t do it just once like he used to. He does it over and over again, with his leather belt.
If It would have been my choice, we wouldn’t have ever even set foot in that court. There wasn’t no need to.
I thank daddy takes all his angry out on me. He hurts but loves him to much to anger him. I hate the most when he done made me lie to the whole peoples of Maycomb, when he was the one who did it all to me. He done chocked me and beat me.

Nervous in the Courtroom

People may thank I started cryin’ when I saw Tom cause of what he did to me, but truly I was cryin’ cause of what I was bout to do to him.
I felt like there was two voices jabberin' in my head… Fightin’ with each other real hard. But in the end, my daddy’s voice won.
Everyone was starin’ at me… waiting for me to say the wrong thing, make a wrong move.
That Atticus Finch, almost made me tell my secret. I knew paw won't like that he just beat me another time.
Atticus was sassyin' me and being all kinds of direspectful. It was embrassing.